Today I was inspired to write about my journey in the last year.
I’ve recently joined an event, a 5-day energy journey to clear the way to the best 2017 I could possibly have. It is hosted by lovely Joanna Hennon – a Soul Wisdom Mentor to Entrepreneurs & Visionaries. What really caught my attention is that Joanna mentions that as it’s December we all get excited about New Year and we start making plans for the next year. For us to be able to step into 2017 in the best way, is to release any disappointments about 2016, to heal all the things that our conscious memory has forgotten and celebrate what we did achieve this year. If you’re interested to find out more about this, you can have a look in here.
I wasn’t even aware I needed this until I saw her post. I thought to myself that I have always focused on planning for the next year and forgetting about the stuff that happened in the last year. And it’s so easy to forget about the things that happened, forget about the achievements and how far we’ve come.
One of the questions that Joanna asked us today is to think about where were we last year in December and how does that compare to December 2016.
Her words got me thinking. I’ve started my Virtual Assistant business in October 2015. I was quite new to the entrepreneurial world. A trip to the Philippines a year before opened my eyes to the possibilities and gave me the confidence to start up my business. It was a huge step for me. And I remember how I felt last year in December. I’ve felt so alone, scared and insecure. I didn’t know what to expect, the journey ahead seemed daunting.
I had no one to talk to who could understand the challenges and insecurities I was dealing with. Of course, I could always talk to my family and my husband and I know they would understand that what I’m going through is challenging. But they can understand it from their perspective. Not from a perspective of someone who’s running a business.
This whole year has been full of ups and downs. At times I’ve felt like I’m on top of the world and that I can deal with anything that hits me. On other times I’ve asked myself: “What am I doing?” Right now, I feel so much more in control, more confident, I feel hopeful and not scared. I definitely feel more supported. I’ve found such an amazing community of women, who are going through the same thing. And I am sure there will always be someone who will lift me up and encourage me to keep going. Whenever I’m feeling down, whenever my mind is playing with me and telling me that I’m not enough, there will be someone to guide me to fight that voice.
Throughout this year I’ve learnt so much and I’ve made sure I’d written down all my little and big wins I’ve had. But somehow, I wasn’t even aware of it, I had still underestimated all the progress I’ve done.
I could go on and on and list all the tools I’ve learnt to use in the past year, the tech gremlins I’ve battled and conquered, all the progress I’ve made on the business aspect. In a way, I’ve expected it. What I hadn’t expected is my progress on a personal level. I hadn’t expected to find a sisterhood.
I’ve come to realise that all these doubts that we have, insecurities, questions and problems are universal. And we support each other because we know how it feels. And we uplift each other and celebrate together.
That’s more than I thought I’ll have in a year.
To all the wonderful women that have shared this journey with me, who have inspired me to aim for more, who have encouraged me when I’ve felt down, THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart.
To Joanna who reminded me of importance to recognise how far I’ve come and to heal my past, THANK YOU.